{1}{1}23.976 {113}{190}{Y:i}She used to leave the lights on,|all over the house. {191}{227}{Y:i}Every room. {245}{286}It drove my father nuts! {304}{390}For me it was my brother.|Only we had no lights. {392}{446}He used to leave candles burning everywhere. {449}{547}Yeah well, you know what? No-one wants to hear any more|stories about how poor you were as a child, alright? {548}{630}We already feel as sorry for you|as is humanly possible. {631}{668}He burned the house down, you know. {669}{715}{Y:i}My sister was afraid of the dark {716}{774}{Y:i}only used to blame me for leaving the lights on. {775}{853}{Y:i}Of course my father believed her.|He never sided with me. {854}{934}We had to live in a tent|in the dead of winter for three months. {935}{994}You know, at least my stories|relate to what we're doing. {995}{1021}So do mine. {1022}{1063}You know, we're trekking all over the City, {1064}{1153}shutting down everything the Ancients|activated while they were oh so briefly in control, {1154}{1245}so that we can stop the power|from draining from our one precious ZedPM. {1246}{1307}How does that relate to your idiot brother|burning the house down? {1308}{1329}If we don't succeed... {1330}{1394}We're not going to have|to live in a tent in the dead of winter! {1397}{1426}It's a metaphor. {1443}{1502}- Doctor McKay|- Thank God! {1516}{1552}{Y:i}The control panel. {1553}{1615}- It's completely shot.|- Really? You think so? {1625}{1692}You know, I don't get these Ancients.|They're supposed to be so smart, {1693}{1774}but why activate something that|you don't need and you're not using...? {1775}{1816}Well, maybe they didn't have time to get to it, {1817}{1882}you know, before the human-form Replicators|that you reprogrammed, attacked. {1883}{1943}Yes, yes, we all know what happened! {1993}{2020}Ah... {2025}{2054}Voila! {2055}{2140}You're just angry that you couldn't figure out|how to override the Ancient protocols {2141}{2208}that kept us from shutting down|this place remotely from the control room. {2209}{2235}{Y:i}Hey, neither could you! {2236}{2298}Yes, but I didn't bet everyone|a months pay that I could do it. {2299}{2350}You... OK, you know what, look around, {2351}{2426}see if you can figure out how|to turn this place off, whatever it is. {2428}{2450}Hey... {2453}{2487}are you sure you should be going up there? {2488}{2551}How else am I gonna find out what this room does...? {2555}{2622}God forbid there should be|anything in the Ancient database. {2623}{2671}Ah, there probably is,|we just don't have the time to... {2672}{2703}Ah, here we go. {2745}{2814}- OK, there should be a main power switch...|- Yes, I know that! What do you think I'm doing? {2815}{2850}Alright. {2869}{2916}Alright, double or nothing. {2918}{2951}- Oh, you're on.|- Alright. {2952}{3010}Alright. It's gonna be around here somewhere. {3371}{3391}Rodney... {3392}{3423}what happened? {3486}{3522}I'm not sure... {3541}{3591}but I think I just lost... {3604}{3641}big time. {3903}{3973}Season 3, Episode 14|Tao of McKay {3985}{4055}Transcript by Callie Sullivan & Suzanna|Czech translation by Klenotka. {4057}{4127}Subtitles by SG-66|www.seriestele.net {5185}{5223}{Y:i}As far as I can tell, he's fine. {5224}{5309}I was hit by a mysterious energy pulse.|How can that possibly be fine? {5310}{5350}I've run every test I can. {5351}{5452}Bloodwork, MRI's, X-Rays, the lot.|I found no anomalies in any of the results. {5453}{5518}OK, one more time! Mysterious energy pulse, {5519}{5557}from a device created by the Ancients? {5558}{5612}I mean, who knows what kind of|long term effects I could be in for. {5613}{5680}I mean there's gross mutation,|giantism, invisibility... {5681}{5743}That would be cool. I turned into a bug. {5747}{5822}Alright. Like I said, as far as I can tell,|he's as healthy as a horse. {5823}{5881}- I'm clearing you for active duty.|- Are you insane?! {5882}{5946}Look, I need to be put under guard.|Who knows what I could become. {5947}{5998}What are the chances|it could make him more pleasant? {5999}{6050}- Oh, thank you.|{y:i}- I'll keep an eye on him. {6051}{6080}Thank you. {6118}{6157}Can you still see me? {6194}{6236}What are you saying? {6239}{6288}That you were showing off! {6298}{6358}Normally, if Doctor Esposito weren't around, {6366}{6415}I doubt you would have been|as reckless as you were. {6416}{6449}{Y:i}Are you insane? {6450}{6538}- Which one's Esposito?|- Oh the... the long dark hair? {6539}{6588}Oh right, the one with the perfect little... {6589}{6634}Would you mind?|We're trying to work here. {6635}{6679}For the record, I was gonna say smile. {6680}{6719}Yeah, sure you were. What have you got? {6722}{6750}Nothing. {6755}{6827}Whatever you did fried all the power conduits|leading into the room. {6828}{6860}Whatever I did? {6861}{6940}{Y:i}Look, up until very recently,|this lab was entirely under water, {6941}{7012}quite possible for over 10,000 years.|How is that my fault? {7013}{7053}Well, that part of it isn't. {7054}{7108}OK, that's it. I'm going for lunch. {7133}{7168}{Y:i}How's he doing? {7169}{7204}{Y:i}Same old Rodney. {7205}{7233}{Y:i}You sure? {7235}{7287}{Y:i}He looks a couple of pounds heavier to me. {7288}{7312}{Y:i}Ronon. {7313}{7339}{Y:i}What? {7340}{7409}{Y:i}He eats all the time.|It's not like he exercises. {7410}{7467}{Y:i}He's feeding his unhappiness. {7471}{7536}Hello, I'm right here! I can... {7643}{7685}I can hear you. {7817}{7853}For your information! {7854}{7907}I'm exactly the same weight|I've been since I got here. {7908}{7976}I need to eat regularly,|otherwise I become hypoglycemic {7977}{8025}and I am generally a very happy person! {8026}{8106}{Y:i}Colonel Sheppard, please have your team report|to the control room, immediately! {8107}{8139}{Y:i}Colonel Sheppard. {8290}{8380}We received this transmission|six minutes ago from Major Lorne's team. {8390}{8488}{Y:i}Atlantis base. Repeat!|We are under attack and cut off from the Gate. {8489}{8545}{Y:i}I counted at least 20, maybe more! {8546}{8599}Request backup immediately! {8602}{8675}- Where are they?|- M72-656. {8676}{8740}Have a team of marines|meet us in the Jumper bay. {9150}{9180}{Y:i}Doctor Weir... {9187}{9214}any word? {9215}{9285}Not yet.|But, it has only been an hour. {9286}{9351}- You wanted to see me.|- Yes. I could use your help. {9355}{9440}I managed to get power to part of the console,|to access the labs research logs. {9441}{9502}- Well, that's good news.|- Well, I'm not so sure. {9503}{9559}I could use a second opinion. {9680}{9818}It seems much of this refers to|different elements of human physiology. {9886}{9972}It mentions the mutation of base genetic coding? {9973}{10044}I realise Doctor Beckett said that|there were no evident effects, {10045}{10105}from Rodney's exposure to the device. {10117}{10193}- It seems...|- It's meant to manipulate human DNA. {10229}{10315}{Y:i}Doctor Weir to the Jumper Bay.|The rescue team has returned. {10327}{10358}Let's go. {10414}{10447}{Y:i}What else could it be? {10449}{10479}You're losing your mind. {10480}{10540}{Y:i}I'm telling you it's a bit of a coincidence... {10541}{10577}Well then, prove it! {10578}{10606}Colonel? {10612}{10655}Everyone's present and accounted for. {10656}{10691}How bad is it and who's been hit? {10692}{10754}No-one Doc, we're all fine, thanks to... {10755}{10809}- McKay.|- So he says. {10810}{10841}Rodney? {10883}{10974}Well to be honest, I'm not entirely sure.|I wasn't even sure it was me, at first, but... {10975}{11012}the correlation is impossible to ignore. {11013}{11098}I saw Lorne's team pinned down,|the bad guys closing in, and I just thought... {11099}{11170}You know, wouldn't it be great|if all of their weapons jammed... {11171}{11206}at the same time? {11295}{11348}Next thing I know, they're all running away, so... {11349}{11429}So you think, because you wanted it to happen,|it just did. {11430}{11481}It was a little more than that! {11515}{11547}OK, you know what? {11548}{11601}Watch this!|I'll... {11628}{11670}Rodney! {11721}{11743}Rodney? {11744}{11791}Believe me, I find this just as disturbing as you do. {11792}{11841}Like bloody hell you do! {11875}{11915}Put him down. {11985}{12013}Oh God... {12062}{12149}Have there been any other instances|of this power manifesting itself? {12150}{12191}Powers, plural. {12192}{12244}What else can you do, besides telekinesis? {12245}{12339}Well, super hearing for one and I'm not sure,|but I think I may actually be getting smarter. {12340}{12410}It's hard to say for sure, because|I was pretty smart to start with. But... {12411}{12484}Recently I've been having some ideas that I don't think|even I would have thought of before. {12485}{12543}Does super-ego count as a power? {12544}{12601}Oh, finally! Look, keep it coming! {12608}{12715}We may also be dealing with a super appetite, although|it's hard to tell because he ate so much before. {12716}{12738}Very funny. {12739}{12773}My God, he's eating again? {12774}{12846}- I have a very active metabolism.|{y:i}- Aye, among other things. {12847}{12885}{Y:i}The scan show a dramatic increase {12886}{12965}in synaptic interaction throughout all|the sections of Rodney's brain. {12971}{13025}{Y:i}Much higher than normal human levels. {13040}{13122}There was an incident at SGC, just over a year ago. {13123}{13152}{Y:i}I recall that file. {13153}{13187}I studied the data. {13191}{13217}Fascinating. {13218}{13288}SG-1 discovered a highly evolved human being in stasis.|Turned out... {13289}{13378}he was the result of experimentation|by a Goa'uld named Anubis. {13379}{13436}He was trying to create a means of {13437}{13533}artificially accelerating human physiology|to the point of Ascension. {13534}{13601}Look, that device I found must have been|some kind of an accelerator. {13602}{13671}We know that the Ancients developed|all kinds of powers as they evolved. {13672}{13745}{Y:i}So, it's just a matter of bad luck that|we didn't run into that lab earlier. {13746}{13769}Seriously! {13771}{13799}Me, a super hero. {13800}{13833}Who would have thought it? {14026}{14093}{Y:i}Look, we all agree,|the Ancients were pretty screwed up. {14094}{14124}We do? {14131}{14221}Well, all the ones I met were arrogant,|condescending, and not for good reason! {14222}{14291}But they made giant mistakes and never fixed them. {14292}{14328}They were still Human. {14329}{14370}But then there were all those crazy rules. {14371}{14422}Those only came after they ascended. {14423}{14454}Whatever! {14459}{14526}Maybe this thing doesn't work on everyone, who knows, {14527}{14623}- but we do know it works on McKay.|- It's only been a day. {14626}{14698}Assuming it's safe. But to be honest, even if it's not, {14699}{14759}if we can get a significant advantage|over the Wraith and the Replicators... {14760}{14826}John, I agree, this device may have great potential. {14827}{14887}And with great potential comes|great responsibility, I know. {14888}{14998}Like a lot of other things we have found in this City,|it is a very advanced piece of technology. {14999}{15050}For all we know, it could also be very dangerous. {15051}{15104}- I'm just saying...|- Yes, you can be next. {15117}{15146}Thank you! {15219}{15279}You know, if you're compiling a list, I... {15280}{15358}- Could we stay focused, please?|- Right. {15449}{15512}Come on, you can't keep me cooped up in here, forever. {15513}{15597}You might not be sick, Rodney, but I think we could|both agree what's happening here is far from normal. {15598}{15674}Exactly! So let me go out and start|using my powers to do some good. {15675}{15738}Oh! Are you going to finish that? {15764}{15807}I'm serious! {15813}{15874}We have no idea of the extent of your genetic mutation. {15875}{15966}Please, mutation has such negative connotations.|Advancement is more like it. {15967}{16008}Until we know exactly what is going on here... {16009}{16037}{Y:i}Carson! {16038}{16140}I'm still me! Anyway, it's not like you or these guys|could stop me from leaving, anyways. {16141}{16176}{Y:i}No, but I could! {16204}{16264}Oh, you care to put that to a test? {16289}{16319}Do you? {16322}{16373}Well, no, not really. {16376}{16458}Anyways, as I was saying, I think you're fine|to go about your daily duties {16459}{16590}- as long as you have someone with you, and you...|- Check in every couple of hours, yes, yes, bye bye! {16648}{16698}You know, we could be a team. {16699}{16727}You could be my sidekick. {16728}{16746}Sidekick? {16747}{16806}Yeah, it would be like Batman and Ronon.|Has a nice ring to it. {16807}{16866}Yeah, you keep eating like that|it's gonna be more like, Fatman. {16869}{16899}{Y:i}I'm warning you, {16900}{17002}you will probably be bored out of your mind,|unless you find incredibly advanced physics to be... {17005}{17028}Really? {17034}{17082}- What?|- You think so? {17100}{17138}Hey, she thinks I'm hot! {17164}{17230}- I didn't say anything.|{y:i}- No-no-no, I'm sure that you... {17232}{17275}Oh, of course not, I should have known. {17278}{17306}She meant you. {17320}{17365}I don't know what you're talking about. {17423}{17473}McKay, she didn't say a word. {17503}{17560}Oh my God, I can read minds. {17609}{17646}This is cool! {17672}{17705}No it isn't. {17813}{17873}Oh I'm fine.|No, yes and it doesn't. {17874}{17926}- What?|- I can read your mind. Everyone's actually. {17927}{17982}That was very cool for the first like,|ten seconds there, but, {17983}{18057}now I'm finding it a little disturbing, so|I'm trying to tune it out as much as I possibly can... {18058}{18162}Well, sort of. Anyways, look, I wanted to get|your permission to access the Control Chair. {18163}{18190}{Y:i}I've got some... {18191}{18283}pretty interesting ideas for maximising our ZedPM.|I reconfigured the City's power systems... {18284}{18322}it's too complicated to explain but {18323}{18400}trust me when I say that you are going to be|incredibly happy with the results. {18401}{18485}Look, Elizabeth, I know... you have|every right not to trust me but I promise you, {18486}{18535}I'm gonna make things much, much better, OK? {18540}{18572}{Y:i}Good. She wants you to shoot me {18573}{18676}{Y:i}if you think for even one second that I might be|trying to take over the City for my own evil purposes. {18681}{18720}I'm kidding. That was a joke. {18735}{18789}Is your weapon set to... stun? {18790}{18882}Wait... never mind. There... I did it myself.|OK, to the Chair Room, Ronon. {18928}{18966}Can I shoot him now? {18967}{19005}I can hear you! {19006}{19105}Look, she just wants you to keep a close eye on me!|C'mon, let's go. Chop, chop... much to do. {19115}{19199}I will send a science team down to supervise. {19390}{19478}* Not like that, this is crap. * {19640}{19680}What the hell is he doing? {19681}{19714}Don't ask me. {19725}{19763}Actually, I wasn't. {19778}{19815}I have no idea. {19840}{19900}Rodney, you are affecting power all over the City. {19901}{19920}I know. {19925}{19960}Awesome isn't it? {19970}{19990}No. {19995}{20018}I can't work. {20019}{20058}It's just temporary. {20059}{20150}Rodney, I'm trying to determine|if that device did any permanent damage to you. {20153}{20190}Quite frankly, given your usually {20191}{20266}rampant hypochondria,|I'm surprised you don't seem to care. {20267}{20327}- You're jealous.|- That is ridiculous. {20328}{20408}You should be working with me,|trying to figure out what is happening to you. {20409}{20462}Instead, you're here burying your head in the sand. {20463}{20495}That is not true. {20496}{20575}My head, which happens|to be housing my ever-evolving brain... {20576}{20686}is actually being better utilised here|doing important things that will affect everybody. {20740}{20847}* I am not gonna work with him.|I can f*** at this. He is... * {20848}{20894}He tries to hide it, but deep down, {20896}{20949}I'm the wind beneath his wings. {21014}{21059}Well, how's it coming? {21066}{21121}Actually, I think I'm just getting to the good bit. {21125}{21213}Don't you hate it when people interrupt right|when things are getting good? {21310}{21397}I know McKay is some super-genius now, but... {21398}{21473}I find the flickering lights incredibly unnerving. {21477}{21517}The Doctor Coleman has... {21518}{21545}however reluctantly... {21546}{21569}admitted... {21572}{21661}it does seem as if Rodney is significantly|improving the City's power system. {21662}{21692}Whatever. {21698}{21746}Anyway, you were saying? {21777}{21800}Well... {21803}{21893}we know the Ancients evolved physiologically|to a certain point where they {21894}{21959}could transform into a state of pure energy. {21960}{22002}Ancient history 101. {22003}{22089}Yes. We also know that not all of them|managed to get there. {22097}{22157}You're saying some of them|needed a kick in the pants. {22158}{22190}So to speak. {22215}{22302}I think this machine was not meant|to help them fight the war against the Wraith {22303}{22360}but rather to help them escape it. {22401}{22444}An ascension machine? {22445}{22520}Like the one the Goa'uld tried|to create in the Milky Way. {22550}{22618}Are you saying McKay's going to ascend? {22647}{22722}Unfortunately there's a whole lot more|to ascension than just being physically evolved. {22723}{22830}Believe me, after spending six months|with a bunch of pansy wannabes, I know. {22838}{22883}But, what does this mean for McKay? {22888}{22959}Like I said, just getting to the good bit. {22983}{23026}I'll leave you to it. {23076}{23111}John, wait! {23132}{23192}We need to talk to Rodney, right away. {23334}{23370}You can all relax. {23372}{23431}I'll have us back online in two minutes. {23432}{23471}We need to talk to you. {23491}{23532}What do you mean, I'm gonna die? {23563}{23610}I'm not even sick! I feel great, never better! {23611}{23697}- That Ancient device...|- has accelerated my evolution. {23710}{23779}Eventually I'll reach a point where|I'm physically capable of ascension, {23780}{23828}but ascension takes more than that... there's a... {23829}{23857}there's a mental component. {23858}{23904}{Y:i}I need to know how to make it happen... {23905}{23950}which I don't. {23956}{23985}Yet! {23987}{24089}I'm getting smarter by the minute. It's a pretty good|assumption I'll be able to figure it out on the way... {24090}{24184}OK, so it's not as easy as that. Well, even if I don't,|so I stay a highly-evolved human. {24185}{24241}I mean, I don't have to ascend...|it's, it's a choice, right? {24245}{24292}{Y:i}No? What do you mean, no? {24297}{24372}Oh, that stupid Ancient device|doesn't work properly, does it? {24377}{24497}It's set in motion a series of genetic mutations|that will result in my death if I don't ascend?! {24498}{24548}There is something easier about this. {24549}{24605}{Y:i}That's why the Ancients|didn't put it into common use... {24609}{24715}it's just one more in a long line of abysmal,|over-ambitious failures! {24727}{24760}Oh God! {24761}{24786}I'm a dead man! {24787}{24833}- Doctor McKay|- Yes, yes, I just... {24834}{24930}it's because I stopped in the middle.|I will fix it... just give me a second here. {25056}{25084}That's it! {25086}{25149}* I will kill him,|he is nuts, complete idiot. * {25150}{25214}OK, there's still time left, right,|so maybe there's a way to reverse the process. {25215}{25274}Zelenka! Where's Zelenka?|What the hell has he been doing? {25275}{25356}We have massive power surges throughout the grid.|Shut down protocols are not responding. {25357}{25384}Dammit! {25765}{25809}Come on Radek! Come on! {25812}{25848}{Y:i}He's not breathing, we need to intubate. {25849}{25892}Start an IV wide open. {25909}{25948}Get that monitor set up. {25984}{26058}{Y:i}Right, on my count.|One, two, three. {26105}{26124}Radek! {26125}{26166}{Y:i}Get the leads set up, please. {26190}{26245}{Y:i}He's in V-tach. Prepare to de-fib. {26274}{26310}- Clear.|- Move. {26311}{26348}- Rodney, the man is dying!|- No! {26349}{26396}Just give me a second. I know. {26977}{27015}{Y:i}Heart rate's good. {27040}{27080}{Y:i}Breathing's steady. {27126}{27164}Pulse is good. {27288}{27315}Radek... {27323}{27359}are you OK? {27394}{27434}What happened? {27824}{27853}{Y:i}Rodney. {27854}{27886}Hold on! {27928}{27988}I see you've been busy. {27996}{28046}Yeah, I invented a new math. {28050}{28075}Really. {28076}{28148}It's gonna change the human|understanding of the universe as we know it. {28154}{28214}How is Zelenka? {28232}{28266}You need to ask? {28267}{28303}I'm blocking out people's thoughts. {28304}{28380}It was becoming too overwhelming.|I wasn't able to think. {28411}{28438}Rodney. {28439}{28487}I know what you're gonna say. {28488}{28546}Oh, no... just intuition, I swear. {28547}{28571}I just... {28577}{28664}I tried to fix the Ancient device|but it wasn't meant to reverse the process. {28667}{28745}Once the mutation has started,|it cannot be stopped. {28758}{28802}Actually, {28857}{28977}I was gonna say, if you want|any help in understanding ascension. {29073}{29102}Well, I've already... {29103}{29174}- re-read everything I could in the database.|- Well, it's not exactly a {29175}{29230}- clear-cut set of instructions, is it?|- No. {29231}{29249}And to be honest, you know, {29250}{29309}I've never really been all that big on|the whole idea of ascending in the first place. {29310}{29361}There's too many rules, you know? {29365}{29388}I mean, {29389}{29449}to me, life is about working towards achievement, {29450}{29479}{Y:i}you know? Discovering things... {29480}{29519}- Getting credit for it.|- Exactly! {29520}{29557}I mean, once you know it all, what do you do then? {29560}{29585}I don't know. {29586}{29667}I don't think that ascension necessarily means the end. {29668}{29687}Yeah, see... {29688}{29732}I'm not very big on leaps of faith either. {29733}{29807}I mean, sure, there was a part of me that, from|the beginning knew that this was too good to be true. {29808}{29928}Nothing this great could ever happen to me|without really, really bad consequences. {29945}{29994}{Y:i}Anyways, now I have|come to terms with that {29995}{30055}and I just wanna get as much done|in the time I have left and not {30056}{30136}waste my time on a bunch of mumbo jumbo|I'm not going to understand anyways. {30155}{30269}Oh, I've uh, come up with a way|for increasing the Daedalus' shield power. {30270}{30365}Tell Hermiod to give me a call if he needs|any help understanding the base code. {30366}{30440}I'm sure Colonel Caldwell will be thrilled. {30491}{30530}Look Rodney, {30543}{30581}I'm not gonna try to convince you {30582}{30680}that ascension is right for you or|even possible for that matter, I don't know. {30686}{30710}But, {30715}{30780}I wonder if you have considered the fact that {30786}{30871}{Y:i}if you did somehow manage to ascend,|you can always, {30872}{30939}{Y:i}theoretically, retake human form? {31005}{31045}Why didn't I think of that? {31049}{31079}{Y:i}I don't think it's gonna work. {31080}{31114}I had this shipped from the SGC. {31115}{31187}{Y:i}Aye, I know, the Ancient device used|to measure a persons synaptic activity. {31188}{31245}Ah, more than that. The brains evolutionary level. {31246}{31295}Look, it's basically an asendometer. {31298}{31347}I really don't think we're going|about this the right way. {31348}{31425}If you're a highly evolved super-genius,|put up your hand. {31475}{31535}- From everything I read about the subject area...|{y:i}- Look, {31536}{31651}when you get down to it, even mental states|are actually only physical states, are they not? {31652}{31708}I mean, the brain is just a chemical supercomputer. {31709}{31800}- Oh, I suppose an incredibly complex...|- Yes, is all you need to say, my friend. Look, {31801}{31862}the universe may seem mystical to... {31863}{31918}those without understanding,|when in truth, {31919}{31990}anything and everything can be quantified. {31991}{32042}Look, all that hocus pocus stuff is just a... {32043}{32080}way of getting the brain into the... {32081}{32180}proper electro-chemical state,|to allow the final physical evolution. {32181}{32273}{Y:i}At which point the matter that makes up|this body will turn into pure energy. {32274}{32298}Look... {32299}{32350}what mere mortals {32351}{32423}{Y:i}would refer to as the mystery of ascension {32424}{32501}is actually just a scientific process.|Just protons and electrons. {32502}{32542}- Protons and electrons.|- If you say so. {32543}{32595}Now, if you don't mind, can we... {32720}{32792}Now, based on what I've extrapolated from the... {32793}{32823}Ancient research, {32824}{32915}I have been able to set measurable parameters|for achieving the proper mental state. {32916}{33018}Once I reach 96% synaptic connection|as measured by this device, {33019}{33155}all I need to do is maintain an EEG frequency|of 0.1 to 0.9 hertz and presto, {33165}{33230}I rise to a higher plane of existence. {33231}{33345}Ok, let's assume for one completely|insane moment, that you are right. {33346}{33430}Those frequencies are associated|with near comatose patients. {33431}{33472}{Y:i}No-one who's actually awake can just {33473}{33515}will themselves anywhere close to that, {33516}{33610}- no matter how bloody relaxed they are.|- No unevolved person. {33620}{33685}- Give it a rest, Rodney.|- Just turn it on. {33775}{33844}Your synaptic activity's abnormally high. Over 60%. {33845}{33932}Yes, I don't have much time left. As I said, by my|calculations, when I reach 96%, {33933}{33971}I either ascend or die. {33972}{34010}Now, what's my EEG? {34011}{34105}29 Hertz, which is about average for someone|in an extremely heightened, wakeful state. {34106}{34164}OK, so I just need to clear my mind and... {34169}{34200}relax. {34263}{34284}What's it at now? {34285}{34309}- Thirty.|- What? {34310}{34360}Oh come on, that's impossible.|You must have me hooked up wrong. {34361}{34440}No I didn't, thank you very much.|We're getting a clear reading. {34449}{34470}{Y:i}Rodney, {34471}{34530}the Ancients that eventually learned to ascend, {34531}{34599}dedicated their entire lives|preparing for this moment. {34600}{34623}{Y:i}Trust me, this will work. {34624}{34691}I just need some more time.|Now stop talking so much, you're... {34692}{34740}you're rippling my pond. {34885}{34982}I think he's having a hard time accepting|this can't be solved with science. {34983}{35038}No matter how brilliant he is. {35040}{35075}{Y:i}You know what he needs? {35095}{35160}He needs to release his burden. {35175}{35220}Yeah, well, you know McKay. {35245}{35310}Maybe Dr Heightmeyer can help. {35315}{35379}Actually, I was thinking more along the lines of you. {35380}{35400}Me? {35430}{35500}You lived with the Ancients for six months|on the brink of ascension. {35501}{35579}You helped them face their fears|and finally ascend. {35580}{35645}I fought a scary monster. That's what I do best. {35650}{35680}And for Rodney, {35681}{35750}I'm sure this seems like a really scary monster. {35864}{35933}I don't think this is gonna work with|you still hooked up to the machine. {35934}{35978}How else am I gonna know if it's working at all? {35979}{36027}Look, you're teaching me how to meditate. {36028}{36115}- Not exactly good odds there to start with.|- I realise that. {36120}{36157}Truth is, {36162}{36220}I was never really very good at this myself. {36221}{36265}So why am I here? {36266}{36350}- Elizabeth made me.|- Oh. Yeah, me too. {36357}{36391}I was with those Ancients for six months. {36392}{36455}Maybe I picked up something|that might be able to help you. {36525}{36595}First thing I think you need|to come to terms with... {36596}{36630}{Y:i}is... {36631}{36670}this is not a means to an end. {36671}{36690}What? {36695}{36772}- Well, of course it is.|- No, you can't do that. You can't think {36773}{36850}that you're just gonna ascend and|then retake human form and be done with it all. {36851}{36905}That is exactly what I'm trying to do. {36906}{36995}Look, from what I understand,|dishonesty's not gonna help the process. {37018}{37039}Good point. {37040}{37085}You know, while we're at it,|my knees are killing me. {37086}{37117}How's anyone relax like this? {37118}{37175}Find a position that works. {37176}{37215}Right. OK. {37248}{37277}{Y:i}Fine. {37285}{37314}{Y:i}Now. {37328}{37385}{Y:i}I want you to become aware of your breaths... {37395}{37430}{Y:i}going in... {37433}{37475}{Y:i}and out of your body. {37476}{37503}In... {37515}{37560}and out. {37561}{37615}Do it without talking. {37630}{37670}Oh, right. {37692}{37720}Now, {37745}{37830}I want you to think about the things|you worry about the most. {37831}{37900}- You mean, like death?|- There's no talking. {37923}{37995}Think of anything that makes you anxious. {37996}{38045}Oh God, there's so many things. {38046}{38110}- Not talking, happens to be one of them, by the way.|- Deal with it! {38155}{38185}Now, {38210}{38300}- imagine yourself sitting on a ferris wheel.|- What? {38305}{38410}Look, I told you I didn't pay much attention|to what the Ancients were teaching me. {38411}{38470}{Y:i}I like ferris wheels, so that's what I thought about. {38471}{38519}And the fact that the woman {38520}{38565}teaching me how to meditate, was... {38583}{38607}very attractive. {38608}{38657}Why am I not surprised you didn't ascend...? {38658}{38705}OK, look, I'm a busy man. {38706}{38746}You're a busy man. We're both busy men. {38747}{38846}Just relax, alright? I'm gonna try and|remember what the woman taught me. {38870}{38902}Alright. {38951}{38980}{Y:i}Now, {38993}{39085}there's a dark storm swirling around in your head. {39086}{39150}- How is that comforting?|- I'm getting there. {39175}{39220}I just thought of a brilliant adjunct|to the Chaos Theory. {39221}{39270}- Look, I should write this down.|- McKay! {39303}{39350}Letting it go. Letting it go. {39351}{39415}{Y:i}Now. The sky is clearing. {39416}{39475}All your troubles are fading away. {39476}{39539}Bright blue sky. I am there. {39670}{39711}- How am I doing?|- Don't think that way. {39717}{39745}Oh, forget it! {39746}{39794}- Look, this is never gonna work.|- What's wrong now? {39795}{39868}I just realized why light behaves|as both particles and waves. {39869}{39921}- Rodney, if you don't try to do this...|- I know! {39922}{39968}I don't have much time left. {40187}{40209}Hey! {40210}{40239}Just a second. {40505}{40530}What are you doing? {40531}{40556}There are like, fifty... {40557}{40620}simulations I'd like to be running right now,|but the computers can't keep up with me. {40621}{40701}The irony being that I've actually figured out|how to make them run ten times faster, {40702}{40754}but I haven't had time to actually stop and do it. {40756}{40911}I've uploaded the virtual prototype for a hyperspace|generator for the Puddle Jumpers into the database. {40912}{40957}Well, that sounds great. {40998}{41038}Are you sure that {41039}{41139}- this is how you want to...|- spend my last couple of days alive? {41140}{41173}Don't have much choice, do I? {41174}{41315}Rodney, I think it's very decent and noble of you|to wanna leave a scientific contribution behind, {41322}{41413}but I still believe there's a chance you|can ascend if you put your mind to it. {41414}{41464}We both know that, that is a waste of time. {41465}{41488}Maybe you could do it, but... {41489}{41609}I don't know if I could, but you are certainly|selling yourself short, by not even trying. {41624}{41644}To be honest, {41645}{41719}- I don't have the first clue where to start.|- Stop thinking. {41720}{41747}See, I don't understand that. {41748}{41820}One of the biggest things that holds people back is {41822}{41872}that somewhere deep down, {41894}{41957}they believe they're not deserving. {41966}{42010}{Y:i}You have to... {42025}{42082}- release your burden.|- Oh please! {42083}{42144}I know, spirituality use a load of mumbo jumbo, {42145}{42199}but it does help people find peace with themselves. {42200}{42255}- But you have to believe.|- I'm not talking about religion. {42256}{42349}I'm talking about shedding yourself of guilt,|of anger, of ill feeling. {42350}{42410}Of anything that makes you feel shame. {42436}{42535}And then you can focus all of your energy on ascending. {42547}{42616}So what you're telling me is that|I don't think I'm worthy. {42617}{42640}Rodney, {42644}{42715}I don't know what|you truly believe about yourself. {42735}{42763}For all I know, you... {42764}{42852}use your intelligence to compensate.|To make yourself feel better for {42853}{42907}other things you think you may lack. {42908}{42930}Like what? {42931}{42970}That I can't tell you. {42982}{43042}But maybe you could start reading your own mind? {43455}{43527}Rodney, I don't care what you're gonna say.|I'm gonna keep working on this, OK? {43528}{43587}Ah well, I appreciate that. {43595}{43648}I mean, you saved my life, so... {43651}{43704}{Y:i}the least I can do is try to save yours, you know? {43705}{43735}Radek, {43768}{43816}I think it's safe to say that... {43817}{43868}I am at times a petty, {43869}{43906}vindictive, even... {43907}{43947}jealous man. {43955}{44069}{Y:i}I sublimate my own anxieties or feelings|of inadequacy by creating a {44070}{44130}bubble of hostility around myself. {44138}{44167}I know that you... {44168}{44213}probably more than anyone else,|have had to... {44214}{44277}- bear the brunt of that hostility...|- Rodney, you don't have to... {44278}{44336}Actually, I do. Here's the thing... {44387}{44429}You're a brilliant scientist {44437}{44487}and a decent human being. {44488}{44555}I mean, you should not have had to endure the kind of {44556}{44618}abuse that you've taken from me in the past few years. {44644}{44734}I hope you can find a way to forgive me|for all the things I've said and done to you. {44737}{44802}You deserve much better than that. {44840}{44884}So, I wanted you to know that... {44950}{44983}Yes. {45333}{45375}- Rodney.|- Mind if I come in? {45376}{45409}- Should you...|- Hope you don't mind. {45562}{45590}I was talking with Halling and {45591}{45676}he happened to mention that it was the anniversary|of the death of your father, next week. {45677}{45706}He did? {45707}{45784}OK, I might have asked a few...|pointed questions, but {45785}{45836}I just thought it would be nice if... {45866}{45905}what I mean is, {45919}{46034}I would be honoured if you'll let me share|the memorial tea ceremony with you. {46052}{46114}I don't know if it's wrong to do|it early or anything, but... {46115}{46164}I may not be around next week. Anyway, {46170}{46251}I understand it's something|you're not supposed to do alone. {46279}{46326}Thank you Rodney. {46344}{46371}No, no, no, no, no. {46372}{46410}I know exactly what to do. {46411}{46450}You are the one who's lost a loved one. {46454}{46494}I will serve you. {46574}{46603}Hey buddy! {46604}{46632}Pal! {46650}{46684}Been looking all over for ya! {46685}{46722}Checked the gym, the mess... {46723}{46747}Wasn't there. {46748}{46817}No you weren't.|Usually, one of those is a good bet. {46818}{46849}So, where you off to? {46850}{46872}Shooting range? {46873}{46916}A little target practice? {46917}{46937}I don't need practice. {46938}{46998}Oh no. No, no of course you don't. Look... {47013}{47072}I don't know how much time I have left,|so I'm just gonna... {47073}{47162}cut to the chase here|and ask you a rather personal question. {47163}{47224}Hopefully you wont just hit me in the face. {47252}{47291}Asking away. {47311}{47332}Those... {47344}{47380}scars on your back, {47381}{47475}from your encounters with the Wraith,|you know, with the tracking device? {47496}{47523}Are those like a... {47530}{47560}a badge of honour, {47561}{47595}for you, or they just a... {47596}{47663}a constant reminder|of something you'd rather forget. {47686}{47750}Now, I know it's none of my business, I just... {47780}{47855}I try not to let things I can't change bother me. {47916}{47949}That's very healthy. {48374}{48409}I hope you don't mind. {48432}{48473}I just healed them. {48834}{48885}You're not still trying to find|a way out of this for me, are you? {48886}{48929}You think I'm gonna give up? {48937}{49012}Look, all the Ancients that experimented|with that device, they either... {49013}{49083}ascended or died.|Most of them the latter, which is.. {49084}{49169}- why it did not get put into common use.|- Like you said, there were exeptions. {49179}{49257}Yes well, this will all be over soon and|you can get back to some real work. {49258}{49281}Rodney... {49282}{49330}- don't.|{y:i}- No, no, no, no, no, no, I'm not... {49331}{49381}fishing for sympathy.|I just... {49388}{49443}hey, I just wanted to give you that. {49458}{49493}What have you invented now? {49496}{49555}Oh nothing, it's a...|it's a book. {49568}{49596}About what? {49597}{49622}{Y:i}You. {49635}{49676}Well you've taken a lot of crap as the... {49677}{49734}leader of this expedition and|I just thought someone should... {49735}{49776}leave a record of all the good things you've done. {49777}{49820}Everything you've done right. {49860}{49927}Everything I do is on record for review. {49928}{49979}Oh yes, I know, I know. I just...|I just thought that {49980}{50065}I would have somewhat of a unique perspective|that other people might benefit from. {50066}{50163}You know, I actually took the liberty|of doing some research into your past {50164}{50202}and included that as well. {50203}{50243}Sorry if I'm not a very good writer. {50248}{50332}It might be a bit overly maudlin in places. {50393}{50455}Rodney, this is 500 pages long. {50456}{50528}- When did you...|- Anyway, that's all. {50551}{50581}{Y:i}Right. {50729}{50760}What's it down to? {50764}{50797}It's not important. {50798}{50821}What? {50844}{50900}Of course it is. It's gotta... {50901}{50996}- What, 17 hertz? It's not even close!|- It's closer than you've ever been. {50997}{51025}Oh forget it. {51055}{51142}Look, if you have to keep asking,|you're obviously not getting it! {51143}{51179}This is about letting go. {51180}{51233}I don't know how to do that, OK?! {51234}{51289}I mean, I don't know how not to be me. {51327}{51376}Look, thank you for all of your help. {51391}{51449}I think in the grand scheme of things, we're... {51450}{51484}we're good, aren't we? {51519}{51559}Of course. {51589}{51649}Look, if it's not too much trouble,|I'd like you to read my eulogy. {51650}{51702}I refuse to discuss that! {51712}{51749}Just keep it simple. {51758}{51834}Make up a few nice things.|I'd like my little sister to be there {51835}{51854}and... {51855}{51957}oh, you should know that I told Beckett that he should|most definitely do a full autopsy. {51958}{52066}{Y:i}They can use my body for any kind of experimentation|that might prove helpful and... {52072}{52111}oh, and I'd like to be cremated. {52112}{52162}with my...|my ashes to be {52163}{52233}- thrown out into space from the Jumper. So...|- Rodney! {52245}{52274}Rodney! {52425}{52479}{Y:i}Medical team to my quarters. {52522}{52614}The synaptic activity in your brain|has reached over 90%. {52623}{52667}I don't know why, but it seems the more {52668}{52726}pervasive evolved state of the cortex {52727}{52787}is causing lapses in the lower brain function. {52788}{52890}{Y:i}It's almost as if your body is losing|its natural ability to keep itself alive. {52891}{52940}{Y:i}When ascension occurs naturally, {52941}{53016}the physical body is no longer necessary|in the final stages. {53017}{53088}Rodney, I don't know how much more you can take. {53101}{53141}About 6%. {53147}{53196}There must be something we can do. {53198}{53227}{Y:i}It's OK. {53240}{53269}You know, {53274}{53318}I'm actually feeling a sense of {53322}{53353}peace. {53379}{53452}Interspersed with moments of sheer terror of course. {53453}{53482}{Y:i}Rodney, {53483}{53544}as far as this ascension thing... {53560}{53646}I know you didn't have much success,|but at this point... {53659}{53701}what have you got to lose? {53712}{53757}May as well go out fighting...? {53758}{53793}Absolutely. {53831}{53866}Hook me up. {53957}{53986}{Y:i}Carson... {54023}{54056}thank you. {54078}{54119}Thank you for everything. {54160}{54223}I only wish I could have done more, my friend. {54512}{54552}Clear blue skies. {54575}{54613}{Y:i}All my troubles just... {54630}{54674}{Y:i}drifting away. {54697}{54726}OK... {54736}{54785}stop talking now. {54856}{54911}Rodney, you're a good person. {54938}{54978}Know that we love you. {55013}{55054}You love me? {55090}{55119}Really? {55123}{55183}{Y:i}- All of you?|- In the way a friend... {55184}{55229}feels about another friend. {55230}{55296}You're just saying that because I'm gonna die. {55312}{55338}Oh, God. {55339}{55409}{y:i}- I can't believe I'm gonna die.|- Alright, just back to the blue skies. {55410}{55450}Let your thoughts go. {55451}{55530}{Y:i}Concentrate on our breathing. {55715}{55750}Oh my God. {55986}{56048}He's not breathing, quick, bag him.|We need to get him on the ventilator. {56049}{56107}- Carson, he gave us strict orders...|{y:i}- You don't understand. {56108}{56151}He just told me how to save him. {56198}{56251}We're enroute.|His pulse is very weak, are you ready? {56252}{56285}We will be. {56345}{56374}Almost. {56551}{56579}{Y:i}Right. {56662}{56706}{Y:i}Hurry, he can't breathe on his own. {56802}{56832}OK, stand back! {57127}{57152}{Y:i}Rodney? {57170}{57218}- It worked!|- Did it? {57219}{57287}- Well, I'm alive aren't I?|{y:i}- Sounds like him. {57288}{57314}{Y:i}Yes, yes. {57338}{57381}I can't hear one of your thoughts. {57415}{57455}Telekenesis is gone. {57478}{57545}I'm still smart, I think. {57550}{57579}Yes. {57580}{57610}Yes, I'm me! {57616}{57635}I'm my old self. {57636}{57716}- Are you certain?|- Yeah, I'm alive. I feeel... I feel great! I feel... {57749}{57795}- hungry?|- He's fine. {57796}{57884}- And you said it was impossible.|{y:i}- Yeah, it just came to me. {57885}{57992}I was... floating in this big black emptiness|and then the answer came out of nowhere. {57993}{58054}Look, the device was designed to manipulate your DNA. {58055}{58140}{Y:i}It couldn't reverse the evolutionary advancement|process, because everyone's DNA was different. It makes {58141}{58191}certain changes that causes the DNA to {58192}{58267}evolve in ways specific to your own unique physiology. {58268}{58317}In order to manipulate the DNA|back to a previous state, {58318}{58365}the program required a precise reference point. {58366}{58457}Fortunately I keep blood samples from all|the Atlantis team members for baseline comparisons. {58460}{58528}I don't understand what any of you are talking about. {58550}{58597}It's good to have you back buddy! {58608}{58680}- Yes well... it's good to be back.|- Yeah. {58885}{58925}Hey, how are you feeling? {58926}{58956}Terrible! {58963}{59038}- Should I get Carson?|- No, no, no. Physically I am fine, but {59046}{59084}this doesn't make any sense. {59095}{59138}I can't figure out any of these... {59139}{59220}equations. I mean, the algorithms are|complete gibberish. I mean, this is torture. {59221}{59327}I can clearly remember exactly how important|this all is, but I cannot figure out {59328}{59425}- why or... how.|{y:i}- Well I just dropped by to show you this. {59450}{59527}Your EEG readings from your last meditation. {59625}{59656}Oh my God! {59677}{59708}It's 0.3 Hertz. {59709}{59735}I did it! {59736}{59801}I mean, I was in the zone.|I could have actually ascended. {59828}{59908}You said you were floating in a big empty space, {59909}{59958}when the idea of how to save yourself came to you. {59959}{60027}I may have momentarily thought about|how hard it is to rid oneself of ego. {60028}{60147}I mean, and that existence without the individuality|of consciousness would be pointless, but... {60158}{60262}Now I say that, that's probably what gave me|the idea to reprogram the device with my old DNA. {60263}{60296}Yeah, I thought so. {60297}{60325}Yeah well, you know what? {60326}{60370}I don't care if you don't think|that I was capable of ascension, {60371}{60466}I never wanted to do it anyways. In fact...|you know what, I am very happy with who I am. {60477}{60514}And you love me. {60544}{60603}- What? I never...|- You so did! {60607}{60656}Yeah, I may not be able to understand|this new math I created, but... {60657}{60710}I distinctly remember that you said you love me. {60711}{60771}- Actually, I said we love you and...|- And what. {60772}{60820}What, you were just saying that,|because you thought I was dying? {60821}{60909}- No, I said it bec...|- See? You love me! It's true, you've said it. {60910}{60963}Now I know.|I've always suspected it. In fact... {60964}{61012}you know, I've always noticed that there's been a... {61018}{61140}indefinable and yet magical chemistry between us,|that I think I covered in chapter ten. {61143}{61181}- Rodney...|- You had lunch yet? {61182}{61244}- Yes.|- Mid-afternoon snack, then? {61262}{61299}I will keep you company. {61311}{61347}Now, is Sheppard still {61348}{61421}bugging you to let him use the ascension device|to turn himself into some kind of a superhero? {61422}{61446}Oh yes. {61447}{61486}Despite the fact that the Ancient database states {61487}{61570}that its effects on people are wildly unpredictable|and that I'm just lucky I wasn't {61571}{61632}instantly melted down into a pool of protoplasm. {61633}{61655}Yes. {61656}{61712}- Ah, well maybe you should let him.|- I think not.